Saturday nite when i stayed with K, I called me he asked me where am i , i said at home, after we talked awhile suddenly he said he was coming my home,wa... that moment i don't know how to explain with K. Although I am glad to meet I. But right now K is my boy friend. Whole of conversation with I K was heard, after our line off K was mad!! He was soso angry and said,' U're liar, why don't u tell him U have boyfriend?' He did what he made me afraid and hurt. I don't want to talk to him, i went out to meet I, i didn't tell him what's happen before this. He was drunk, we just chatted in the wind softly.

And next day everything still same, nothing special, meaningless with I..empty

 Last nite went to peak with K, it's beautiful city so bright! Although he was tired but he still wait for me, made me appreciate. The view so nice^When we back home he asked me can he go my home, i said i'm so tired may be next time...At midnite i slept he called me he asked the same question of courise i said No again. Then i asked him one question after he replied i disppointed...Today morning i got on the bus he called me and told me to change the moblie company same as him then he can send mms, video to me free charges, but i rejected then he angry with me. At lunch i called him twice but he didn't receive. So i think it's mean Double K were over lo, so fast!

i decided be with K, not deep may be probability of get hurt will be less...but he always make me angry ka, he always talk same thing in many times, e.g. after we had dine he must said,'so full ar... so full ar....' again and again in whole hour..it's make me borning~  may be that's my mistake,i want to let O past of my mind then i be with K, actually sometimes i really have fun with K. So confuse!

i...photoshop so difficult for me, i am so stupid in software, i like to do homework of G.D. But software that part it's hard!!  

Saturday go to OceanPark hehe..This month my work make me so down, if no need to pay for rental i really want to quit..

 should I travel alone?  can't go burki, now i change the plan to go Hokkaido. i really need to leave HK for while, because i clearly understood cannot being with O. i must restart my feeling. but i don't want let down my life, the scar'O in my heart.. now i looking forward the lesson of graphic design, 3rdOctober , hehe.

 can't go burki la....i... disappointed  

 my sky darker than the weather

 Heavy rain today,wet, wet, wet..I will have lesson of graphic design on 3rd October, I will spend 1 year for that diploma it's time to make a reservation for myself. Before this I plan to go Burki sunshine & beach, yuk ooh~ Tonite I will meet I but the weather...i don't know can we meet? But my mind full of O,impossible meet him la, meanless being with anyone. In fact I just have fun with me, doesn't matter. 

 This few days not busy,  make me lazy than usual, last night slept not well, energy has gone, hehe...but I, I, I.... nothing special .... 

 " letdown in love, win on gambling" This happen didn't work on me, last Sunday I played majong totally lost, dam it! In work I lost a big client, dam it!! Such of unfortunate, i... If now O in front of me give me a big hug then everything doesn't matter la....hehe..

 when I met O first day he made me feel like Ian. But being with him their character is different, Ian quite but i never feel borning. O outgoing, tidy, like  basketball more than me. O I never know how come to go on, why he done, I just know he hurt me so. Yesterday I met him again in mongkok, i thought I won't meet him. Met him that moment WKC next  to me, We've eye contact . He just keep walking ,he look like don't know me. I'm silly how can I miss the one who never serious to me. I don't want this....feeling lost, i never give again, never love, lost feelng now I hope I lost feeling in anyone, won't love again, enough, hurt enough

 I'm worry very, very, very worry... Three days later, I've never happen this before. When I made the decision now the problem I need to face. I can't talk about this, can I handle it, I don't know what can I do? I never go to church but I'm christian, last night i pray...Can I solve this time?? Will "J" help me??