two x'mas holiday was gone actually just one day only..today i waked up hardly so sleepy...but i got the DKNY watch in this xmas, feel better~2006 it's hard for me, my job, my difficult software of G.D. lessons..may be i can't pass! i...my love all make me disappointed! Happiness why don't u be with me?

 2006/10/28 Last time met O, after we kept contact, but he clearly told me he can't promise anything in this moment, because he has trouble in business. Before i saw the fortune of O it said he'll have big trouble in 40 years old, but i'm not expect to happen right now, i'm not ready to solve suddenly because i just start to save the fund for him. At first, i hardly asked K borrow money to me, but the amount is three hundred thousand, i know i need to count the cost for him. This amount not anyone can pay... But his answer is YES! I told O i can help him and he asked me how can i do this? When he knew we can't meet again but he need the money so that moment we have no choice ,can't say anything. I never been happen this situation like the film, the feeling was so bad.. next two day i received the cheque and deposit to O' a/c and also when i took the cheque i need to give up leave HK with Mum be with K. This moment i know money is so important! But that's not the worstest case let me wake up to reality is O can't get the money that's why K stop payment after he checked O' background. O disppointed with me and said some so hurt me let me knew he actually just care the money not me! I'm not deserve give up what i want for O! Silly, i'm so silly...my heart has already empty. I hate to give anymore, i won't!! I Lost! Totally lost...